I'm sure the weight doesn't help, but such is life. I have a (very) thin buddy who has had disc trouble for a couple of years. Weight isn't the only variable.
It's hard not to get discouraged. In fact, I went to the gym today for the first time in three weeks. I have missed it, but I didn't really realize how much or in what way. Fundamentally, it felt good to move. I did 15 minutes on the elliptical (PT's orders) and then I did a round of core exercises. It was just really nice to be there and do that, even for a short time. I'll do something similar tomorrow.
I also came up with a schedule for where I'd like to be:
I started (again) April 1, 2010 at 358 (I'd been lower and had put on some pounds). I'm right at 320 now.
Here's where and when I'd like to be.
By April 1, 2011—300.
By October 1, 2011—270
By April 1, 2012—250
By October 1, 2012—220.
By April 1, 2012—200.
That feels very ambitious. It also feels slow. I want to wear cool clothes now. NOW. I have some already that I'm close to getting into. In a year and a half, I think I'll be able to wear anything I want. And yes, I'm willing to have surgery to remove excess skin.
I think one of the reasons people get impatient is because you're sick of being fat now, but it takes time to lose. It's discouraging. It is. But I feel better eating the way I'm eating than the way I used to (which wasn't terrible, but was too much). The other day, I wanted a snack about 4pm and went down to the lobby of my building. I was going to get a scone from Starbuck's, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I got a turkey sandwich from a store next door. Saved some calories and a lot of fat. I could have done the scone. I had the "budget" for it. But there are better choices. I made one. It might be a habit. An actual good habit--taking care of myself. Shocking.
It will take a while. At least a year and a half. But what else am I gonna do? Order pizza?
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